Thursday, October 17, 2013

Just Friends


It felt like every Thursday after class my friends and I had something planned for the night. During our last class of the week we all argued on what we were going to do for that night. Some of us wanted to go out to eat while others wanted to just go home. After having such a heated discussion around people who we were not that close to, we had no choice but to invite them.
            One of the acquaintances was someone that I had been avoiding for weeks. This guy from my psych class, who shall be named “X”, had asked me out several times before. I didn’t think much of it before because I was clueless to the fact that he liked me in a romantic way. Everyone was still debating on what we were going to do when we finally decided on going to Applebee’s.
            “X” tagged along to our group desperately trying to get my attention. The whole journey to the Applebee’s I was clinging on to my friend Giancarlo in order to avoid X. It eventually became harder to avoid him because he sat directly in front of me at the restaurant. There were six of us who were hanging out and I was the only one he knew. All my friends had attempted to start a conversation with him but failed because he was too busy trying to talk to me. I however we not cooperating because I was trying to find attention from anyone but him.
            When X decided to get up from the table to go to the rest room there was a silence that fell. All of my friends waited until he was completely in the bathroom to start their gossip. My friend Darianna had to point out the obvious by stating that he was into me. Everyone agreed with her and elaborated more on the fact that he kept staring at me. This made me feel uncomfortable; I couldn’t stand being around him anymore. I’ve known this kid since church school when we were 12 and are good friends with his ex-girlfriend.
            Ignoring him is probably one of the worst things that I have ever done. To this day I still regret not having the courage to tell him that I just wanted to be friends. After that night I didn’t respond to his texts and avoided seeing him around campus. I usually sat next to him in our Psych lecture but had decided to sit in the front of the class instead. Sometimes when I see him around campus he waves hello with a friendly smile. But I know that behind his smile he hides what I hide too.

1 comment:

  1. I think this post had a lot of voice. You allowed the audience to feel the awkwardness throughout the post. I also was able to sense your regret on the last paragraph. That had to be a rough situation, and you did an excellent job with displaying the story to us. With the exception of missed commas in the first paragraphs, I enjoyed reading this post. Good job.

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