Somehow I have
managed to unplug the hole deep inside my mind that contained all of the
memories I have been trying to forget my whole life. And now these memories are
attacking me when I least expect it. I like to call this phenomenon a “cringe
attack”.
I am sure you have all experienced a
cringe attack in some form or another at least once in your life. I however
suffer from these spasms on a day-to-day basis. You’re just going through your
daily routine, living life, until BAM a repressed memory suddenly decides to
remind you how much you suck at life.
It could be from your childhood or something you did a day ago.
Suddenly your mind decided to relive a horrible moment from the past.
This inward shiver of embarrassment
and disgust can be from situations in your past where you have made yourself
look stupid. Like that time in the 4th grade where I spilled apple
juice on my pants and my P.E teacher had a long discussion with me about the
risks of holding in your bladder or the time I told a guy I couldn’t go out
with him because I was going to New York and he ended up seeing me at the mall
later that day. These memories just pop up out of nowhere to torture you and
your body twitches and shivers in reaction to these repressed events. you can't help but think "why did I do that?" or scream "STUPID!" out of no where.
I have wondered on the reason why
these spasms occur and have found a silver lining. Every cringe worthy memory
that you have encountered making you collapse represents how much you have
grown. You can now look back at these embarrassing moments and learn from them
in order to function better in situations to come.
I have collected all of my painfully
embarrassing stories as well as moments in my life that I managed to surpass my
awkward characteristics and carried on into this blog.
